The song fits perfectly. :) Fallin’ For You - Colbie Caillat
After longing for him, I got tired of waiting. My hear turned numb as it continues to ache.
Before, we communicate a lot. We text each other, we do late night calls and even chat on facebook. I never really thought of lovihg him in an instant. I never felt this into any other guy whom I constantly met. He really differs from the other.
He is suplado, very blunt and he appears very mysterious to me. We tease each other a lot, like we are comfortable with each other. I call him mulish because he is very insensitive and stone-hearted guy ( I always say that to him) and he calls me “tootsy” and I don’t know why he calls me that way. He has a heart pounding sense of humor and I really like it the way he carries it.
I never told him how I feel for him. I’m afraid if he’ll know about my feelings he might distance himself from me and I don’t want that to happen.
I missed him so much and the feeling of longing really kills me because I couldn’t even say it to him. I couldn’t express how I truly love and missis him.
I don’t know what happened to him now. It’s been awhile. He did not bother to text or to call me anymore.
I guess he have found someone new. Someone who is special that brightens his life (better).
The truth is, it took me more than a week to think if should I delete his number or what. Everytime I try to do it, I can’t stop my tears from falling and start reminiscing how we were before.
A part of me is saying that I should be mad at him and forget him but the other part of me is contradicting.
It was hard to accept my own perception about him now, but even if it is very hard, I need to teach or to dictate my heart and mind to accept the fact that he has found someone special that made him forget me and throw those moments that we enjoyed together. I couldn’t blame him for my heartache because from the very start, it was all my fault. I knew there was never “us” and there will never be. It was just me who is very hopeful and very assuming that we can build something special.
Until now, I am still hoping that he can find his way back to me and realizes he loves me. But if it won’t happened, then it’s okay. by that time I have managed to teach myself forget everything we had. :)
I still love you MR. USC (BS ICT)